30 April..what is it?

30 April is one of the important dates in my life. What is so special about 30 April?

Let see the Quotes that is synonym with 30 April:

2004

Never attribute to malice that which is adequately explained by stupidity. ~ Robert J. Hanlon

2005

It is not knowledge, but the act of learning, not possession but the act of getting there, which grants the greatest enjoyment. When I have clarified and exhausted a subject, then I turn away from it, in order to go into darkness again. ~ Carl Friedrich Gauss (born 30 April 1777)

2006

You know that I write slowly. This is chiefly because I am never satisfied until I have said as much as possible in a few words, and writing briefly takes far more time than writing at length. ~ Carl Friedrich Gauss (born 30 April 1777)

2007

In a political struggle, never get personal — else the dagger digs too deep. ~ Jack Valenti (recent death)

2008

The Gods do not protect fools. Fools are protected by more capable fools. ~ Larry Niven

2009

Zen is not a particular state but the normal state: silent, peaceful, unagitated. In Zazen neither intention, analysis, specific effort nor imagination take place. It's enough just to be without hypocrisy, dogmatism, arrogance — embracing all opposites. ~ Taisen Deshimaru

2011

Harmonizing opposites by going back to their source is the distinctive quality of the Zen attitude, the Middle Way: embracing contradictions, making a synthesis of them, achieving balance. ~ Taisen Deshimaru (date of death)

Others:

          If freedom is short of weapons, we must compensate with willpower. ~ Adolf Hitler (died April 30)

           

         I have not come into this world to make men better, but to make use of their weaknesses. ~ Adolf Hitler (died April 30)

        I have had my results for a long time: but I do not yet know how I am to arrive at them. ~ Carl Friedrich Gauss (born April 30)

       The enchanting charms of this sublime science reveal themselves in all their beauty only to those who have the courage to go deeply into it.~ Carl Friedrich Gauss (born April 30)

        To receive everything, one must open one's hands and give. ~ Taisen Deshimaru (date of death)

            Keep your hands open, and all the sands of the desert can pass through

            them. Close them, and all you can feel is a bit of grit. ~ Taisen Deshimaru

           (date of death)

            

Speedy fast learner

It has been almost 6 years of my working life since I graduated from IIUM. I begin my career with the coaches from Puan Tamsiah doing the finance stuff that usually done by the seniors. They all, Puan Tamsiah and Mr Omar Kim Abdullah mould me into someone that could learn really fast and adapt to any changes easily. Yes, they are the first who mould me into that person. I really thank them for their trust and believe on my ability and capacity to deliver.

Yes, I had to learn very fast. I digest everything in one sip. I have no time to play around. I have no time to jokes. It differ me from my peers. When my peer’s colleagues could hang around, I stayed back just to complete the bank’s budget in my third month of working life. When my colleagues home early for soccer or any games, there I am, sitting in the server room, learning how on report to BNM. It  was the toughest day of my life. I seldom feel sad about it. I used to grumble on it.  I used to query why I was mould to be like that, not them, my colleagues. But today, I stand smiles. I am proud to mould that way. Because of that mould, I am able to stand this way; I am able to be competent in whatever they require.

My second place of work has changed me totally. It was not only the knowledge required but emotion management. I learn to be better person. It test me knowledge wise and I think I had succeed. Some people may query, how do I change my field from banking industry to construction and oil industry? Well, to me, it just the same. If you are good in that field, finance and accounts, any field that you being thrown, you would survived. Yes, that’s what I hold as a principal in my life. And I did prove it. How do I do that? The same way of fast learner and easily adaptable. Give only the best of your capability and ability. Be sincere in the jobs. God willingly, the returns shall pay you back.

Any changes of the accounting and finance between both industries have been reconcilable. People have talking now. They listen to me for whatever of the competencies that I have. Again, the survivalist is depends on how fast you could learn and adapt.

I am now changing to another industry. Again people is querying, how could I? Will I survive? My abang long previously a bit hesitate when I told him that I want to switch the industry. But after a few things happen in the previous office he then advised me to change. Quoting from what he said to me,” I’m sure that you will survive in any of the industry”.

So here I’m now been a week in the new industry. Unfortunately it seems someone hates me because I am a fast learner. Hey don’t hate me for my best qualities that built within me. I am a person that willing to learn. I am willing to open my heart learning new things. I am a fast learner. I do fast adapt to the new things. It’s my genetic. To that person, don’t have me for you not being able to compete with me. I’m mould to be like that. I do see things five times farer than you.  You just cannot compete with me, dear. 

Hold My Hands

I always touched by this song whenever it’s on air. It kind of a universal song. It reaches us to love everybody in this world, regardless who they are. Such humidity, with the simple wording but yet it touches your deep heart. Enough of my drama. Here is the son g, “Hold My Hands” by Maher Zain.

I hear the flower's kinda crying loud
The breeze's sound in sad
Oh no
Tell me when did we become,
So cold and empty inside
Lost a way long time ago
Did we really turn out blind
We don't see that we keep hurting each other no
All we do is just fight

Now we share the same bright sun,
The same round moon
Why don't we share the same love
Tell me why not
Life is shorter than most have thought

Hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what we have left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit of me and you
For another chance
And let's pray for a beautiful world
A beautiful world I share with you

Children seem like they've lost their smile
On the new blooded playgrounds
Oh no
How could we ignore
heartbreaking crying sounds
And we're still going on
Like nobody really cares
And we just stopped feeling all the pain because
Like it's a daily basic affair

No matter how far I might be
I'm always gonne be your neighbor
There's only one small planet where to be
So I'm always gonna be your neighbor
We cannot hide, we can't deny
That we're always gonna be neighbors
You're neighbor, my neighbor
We're neighbors

So hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what have left behind

So hold my hand
There are many ways to do it right
Hold my hand
Turn around and see what have left behind
Hold my hand my friend
We can save the good spirit of me and you
For another chance
And let's pray for a beautiful world
A beautiful world I share with you

Do we care?

It’s going to be the last 2 semester before I finish my study. Somehow, it’s going to be tougher than it used to be. This semester I took 3 elective courses just to complete the requirement. Speaking of the elective, this program is hardly to find girls took it. Since that, we are the only girls in the class, me and Alina. Being the only girls in the class, we become part of the teasing chapter for both classmates and lecturers.

I have to be frank that I feel uncomfortable with that situation. The attention was given to us since no other potential victim to be. Every single thing is being seen, even to small things like eating in the class. Not to mentioned being questioned all times. All these added to the stress level of us. But knowing us, do we care? We just maintained the same old us, eating, pretending and drama in the class. Huh. No effect maa..

The only things being care by us is why people always looking down to us. They always have negative thought that we cannot do. They always believe that we are not competent enough to be there, sitting in the room with them. Well, that’s hurt. It tears us apart. But do we care? Yes deep inside our heart, although we shown non expressible faces. We will see. Time will show. They will know..huh..

Post Graduate Exhibition 2011

Yesterday I went to Mid Valley exhibition centre for Training Fair for Postgraduate. I went there with my friend, Alina. We met at KL Sentral and using commuter to Mid Valley. As usual, the commuter was really slow, it such a boring day commute with that train. Not to mention, we are in the pink coach.

The exhibition starts 10am and was held in third floor of the Mid Valley. We arrived there by 10.20am but unfortunately we are lost in the space. Lucky Alina asked one of the sales girls and she directed us to the correct place. As we arrived, peoples are crowding the area. We have to register and get a sticker as a pass to enter the exhibition.

Alina was the one who actually insist us to visit the exhibition. We tried to get as many as we can information on the doctorate information offered by these universities including the duration, subjects, sponsorships,  fellowships and other related information. We even questioned the exhibitor regarding studies abroad such as in UK, Autralia, Taiwan and Germany. Some of them were helpful but some of them are not really competent, which I don’t think the universities should not put them as representatives since they did not know or embark anything helpful especially to the potential student like us.

There are many universities involved in this exhibition. Among them are Universiti Utara Malaysia, University Malaya, Universiti Sains Malaysia, Universiti Tenaga, Multimedia Universiti, Universiti Kelantan, Universiti Perlis, KUITHO, KUSZA and others. Look at the brouchures that we collected from the exhibitors.

Not to forgotten the souvenirs that we collected together with the pamphlets given.

And also the business cards.

Not to forget the goodies bags.

We enter the exhibitor by 10.30 am and only out by 1.30. It such a long day, and our feet is so hurt because we walk too much. To worse the things, we rushed to UUM for Supply chain class. The lecturer is so bred, but unfortunately what choice do we have? L I just hope the session will end fast. Or could I press fast forward button, please?

Love: Miss Aiz Rahman

Why do I write?

Well, I suddenly remembered that I haven’t told you why I’m writing in this blog. The reason is definitely not because I like witting, phewww, I’m born naturally not as a writer. Hell to the NO.

So why do I write? I write just for fun. Can you believe the reason? Haha.. I write just to express myself. I’m not a blogger, not even a writer. To write a short paragraph even need me one day to complete. Yes, I write for fun, just to express what I feel, what I heard, what I see. I write just to spill whatever I hold inside myself, including my happiness, my sadness, my anger, my enthusiastic, even my drama. It is called as self expression.

Sometimes I write just to share, normally not as public view but more to my personal. I write just for my own reminder. It’s my opinion, it’s my view, it is hoped to guide me, someday.

Did you notice that all my expression is in English? Not in Bahasa , except to those lame language? Well, yes, I write as training for my English, so that it could help me in my studies. I hope this writing enable me to write a good report whenever I pursue my doctorate, someday. That is why you see most of the time, I tried to use appropriate language terms instead a normal talking terms. Pretty boring, right?

Last but not least, I write to fulfil my spare time. Did you notice I only write in certain period only? Oh yes, I only write when my semester and examination is over. Otherwise, though I’m in front of the laptop, I had a piling of assignments and project papers. Which do I choose? Of course la the assignment and project papers instead of my blog, otherwise when will be I completing my studies? Not to mention getting bad marks in the examinations, kan? Hell to the No.

Well, I better stop here. It’s 8.09 am of fine Saturday. I better get showed and dressed for my class. So guys, see you when I see you. Chows..

Love: Miss Aiz Rahman

Goodbye

Today is my last day in Ingress. Though it is hard to say goodbye, but I realised that life has to move on. I need to have changes for my own good. I need to have a new exposure so that I could learn more. I need a room for improvement. I was reluctant in the first place. I had very good colleagues here. Not really colleagues, they are more like families to me. Gosh, I’ll be missing them (seriously, I’m writing with my tears dropping non stop). I’m now starting missing them though it just a few hours back home. I miss my little sister, Nana, my best mate, Baby, my sweet big sis, Farrah. Wonder will I get the same feels there in new place? It’s a difficult decision that I have to do for my future. It’s the hardest choice I have to bear, gambling is what I do.

Nana, I’ll be missing all those things we had done together. I’m enjoying all the time we spent, the gossip we shared, the care you had given to me. It is something that I really valued. Thank you for being there. Don’t be sad okay, no matter what, wherever I go, you still have me. You are still my little sister.

Baby, I’m enjoying the time spent with you. Like the most whenever you talk about Ariq, seriously, feel good, especially when I was stress with that office stuff. Remember, be yourself, ignored what people said, as long as you are happy, its enough for you. And, didn’t I told you I really like your hair with the hair band? Snap a picture and tag me okay whenever you wear it, okay because…..i loike..haha..

My big sister, Farrah. Many thank you taking care of me all these days. I’m enjoying working and gossiping with you. Exchanging ideas with you is the best thing I ever done here besides sharing it with my Abang Long. Thank you for being there when my Abang Long is not there anymore for me. I’ll be missing those days without your ring tone hearing. And my big sister, don’t sing loudly because whatever you sing is most sound like nasyid. After all, “kakak” will be made hearing you sing (chuckles). Don’t forget me whenever you shop for bags. We share the same interest. Coz your are my big sister.

Well, since the tears can’t stop dropping, you guys just enjoy the song okay. (can’t afford to say anymore). A song by Spice Girls tittled “Goodbye”.

No, no, no, no

No, no, no, no

No, no, no, no

No, no, no, no

Listen little child.
There will come a day,
When you will be able,
Able to say.
Nevermind the pain,
Or the agrivation.
She knows there's a better way,
for you and me to be.

Look for the rainbow in every storm.
Fly like an angel,
Heaven sent to me.

Chorus:
Goodbye my friend (I know you're gone, you said you're gone, but I can still feel you here)
It's not the end (You gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear)

So glad we made it,
Time will never change it,
No, no, no

No, no, no, no

Just a little girl,
Big imagination,
never letting no one take it away.
Went into the world, (into the world)
What a revelation.
She found there's a better way for you and me to be.

Look for the rainbow in every storm,
Find out for certain,
Love's gonna be there for you,
You'll always be someone's baby.

Chorus:
Goodbye my friend (I know you're gone, you said you're gone, but I can still feel you here)
It's not the end (You gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear)

So glad we made it,
Time will never change it,
No, no, no

No, no, no, no

Bridge:
The times when we would play about,
The way we use to scream and shout.
We never drempt you'd go your own sweet way.

Look for the rainbow in every storm,
Find out for certain,
Love's gonna be there for you,
You'll always be someone's baby.

Chorus:
Goodbye my friend (I know you're gone, you said you're gone, but I can still feel you here)
It's not the end (You gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear)

So glad we made it,
Time will never change it,
No, no, no

No, no, no, no

No no no no - you know it's time to say goodbye No no no no - and don't
forget you can rely No no no no - you know it's time to say goodbye No
no no no - and don't forget on me you can rely No no no no - I will help,
help you on your way No no no no - I will be with you every day

I shall be missing you girls a lot, big time. L

Love: Miss Aiz Rahman

Us Against the World

This is the song that I like to sing when I felt wanna rebel on something. Not sure why I choose it but it kind a give me satisfaction after singing the song loudly. So guys, enjoys:

Nicky:]
Us against the world 
Against the world
Us against the world 
Against the world

[Shane:]
You and I, we’ve been at it so long 
I still got the strongest fire 
You and I, we still know how to talk 
Know how to walk that wire

[Mark:]
Sometimes I feel like The world is against me 
The sound of your voice, baby 
That’s what saves me 
When we’re together I feel so invincible

[Shane:]
Cause it’s us against the world 
You and me against them all 
If you listen to these words 
Know that we are standing tall 
I don’t ever see the day that 
I won’t catch you when you fall 
Cause it’s us against the world tonight

[Nicky:]
Us against the world 
Against the world

[Mark:]
There’ll be days 
We’ll be on different sides but 
That doesn’t last too long 
We find ways to get it on track 
And know how to turn back on

[Shane:]
Sometimes I feel 
I can’t keep it together 
Then you hold me close 
And you make it better 
When I’m with you 
I can feel so unbreakable

[Mark:]
Cause it’s us against the world 
You and me against them all 
If you listen to these words 
Know that we are standing tall 
I don’t ever see the day that 
I won’t catch you when you fall 
Cause it’s us against the world tonight

We’re not gonna break 
Cause we both still believe 
We know what we’ve got 
And we’ve got what we need alright 
We’re doing something right…

[Shane & Mark:]
Cause it’s us against the world 
You and me against them all 
If you listen to these words 
Know that we are standing tall 
I don’t ever see the day that 
I won’t catch you when you fall 
Cause it’s us against the world tonight

Us against the world 
You and me against them all 
If you listen to these words 
Know that we are standing tall 
I don’t ever see the day that 
I won’t catch you when you fall 
Us against the world 
Yeah it’s Us against the world, baby 
Us against the world 
Tonight

[Nicky:]
Us against the world 
Against the world 
Us against the world

Love: Miss Aiz Rahman

Sembunyi

Suddenly remembered, once upon a time, it is the song that describe d us. It was the song that tells about us. It was a song that shows what we felt. It was “Sembunyi” by Misha Omar and Andy Dlop Poppy.

It says:

Percikan sinar matamu singgah di hati
Bergetar bibirku bisu sukar mengerti
Pantasnya diri ku tawan… tak sempat
Berkelip aku kau punya

Diam mu mengutus ilham membujuk jiwa
Pegun mu suatu ragam melamar rasa…
Biar pun kita mencoba

Sembunyi… namunkan terlihat yang jelas di wajah
Kita memang penasaran merasakan cinta
Bagaikan bintang di malam cerah beri cahaya
Tak terhalang menyinari segala

Pejamkan mata sebentar di hanyut angan
Tersentap aku tersedar di perhatikan
Segannya diri terasa… kemana
Renungan aku nak alih…

Sembunyi… namunkan terlihat yang jelas di wajah
Kita sememangnya sengsara merasakan cinta
Bagaikan bintang di malam cerah… beri cahaya
Tak terhalang menyinari segala

Walau kita coba sembunyi
Namun terlihat segalanya yang tersimpan di hati
Bintang-bintang di malam cerah beri cahaya
Tak menghalang menyinari segala

Walau kita coba sembunyi
Namun terlihat segalanya yang tersimpan di hati

See..what I have told you? The feels is hided deep inside the heart but it shows no matter how..It’s a flame..it’s a fire..Once..it was what we felt..

What Are Words

My colleague, Nana is dedicating this song to me. It is a simple song yet touch my heart. So enjoy.

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I’ll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you’ll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don’t mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they’re only for good times
Then they don’t
When it’s love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we’re gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I’m meant to be where I am
And I’m gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight

And I’m gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don’t mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they’re only for good times
Then they don’t
When it’s love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we’re gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I’ll be there
And I’m gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I’m forever keeping my angel close

Waa...I'm so touch..what are words??