Being a single in the age approaching to three series is somehow could be a troublesome to yourself. The hormone is going to be changing and perhaps reducing (is it true? well better confirm with the doctor in house on that). Everything seems a pressure on me; the works, the social life, the studies (I am a part time student, remember?) and added to the list is the relationship status.
Well, I am single, didn't I mentioned it earlier? So what would you expect? A relationship with electricity pillars down the road? The more pressure comes from uninvited queries and sarcastic. What did they think? All sudden questions like am I too choosy; Why is it so hard? What that I'm looking for? Am I a perfectionist? Huh!! I'm tired to answer all these question. Worse the condition when the question comes from the family members including my beloved parents. Argh!!! I cannot stand it anymore.
How come all of you very sensitive to this issue? Don't you know the most worried here is me myself? Looking back to all my colleges and uni members with their spouses and children happy, yes I feel something too. But can I do? I cannot be far from here. This is what The God has put for you. It's a destiny and who are you to questioned it back?
I do agree deep inside my heart I wanted the same "bahagia" too. However, still I have to accept the destiny wrote for me by Him. I cannot force things to happen just to please myself. It is not I am choosy. It is not I'm ignorance or what. For me, I am looking a future son in laws for my parents, a brother in law for my little brother, as such I cannot be damm take anyone by side the road, am I? It's not the same as picking a fish in the market, right? Even picking up fish we have to be selected.
All I can do now is put a hope that God shall let the thing smoothly run very soon. Whatever people say, well, now I decide to ignore. I have my faith that God will granted my wish at the correct time with the correct person. InsyaAllah, God will grant me the best He think. Indeed, I still have my faith on it.
And to all those people who are so busy to know my status and so busy concern about my self, my answer to all your questions is:
I JUST HAVEN'T MET YOU YET by Micheal Buble:
I’m not surprised, not everything lasts
I’ve broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track
Talk myself in, I talk myself out
I get all worked up then I let myself down
I tried so very hard not to loose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought, I thought of every possibility
And I know some day that it’ll all turn out
You’ll make me work so we can work
to work it out
And I promise you kid that I give so much more than I get
I just haven’t met you yet
I might have to wait, I’ll never give up
I guess it’s half timin and the other half’s luck
Wherever you are, whenever it’s right
You’ll come outta nowhere and into my life
And I know that we can be so amazin
And baby your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility
Somehow I know that it’ll all turn out
You’ll make me work so we can work to work it out
And promise you kid I’ll give so much more than I get
I just haven’t met you yet
They say all’s fair in love and war
But I won’t need to fight it
We’ll get it right and we’ll be united
And I know that we can be so amazin
And bein in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility
And someday I know it’ll all turn out
And I’ll work to work it out
Promise you kid I’ll give more than I get
Oh you know it’ll all turn out
And you’ll make me work so we can work to work it out
And promise you kid to give so much more than I get yeah
I just haven’t met you yet
I just haven’t met you yet
Oh promise you kid to give so much more than I get
I said love love love love love love love
I just haven’t met you yet
And yes, I just haven't met you yet. InsyaAllah, we will, someday.
