I sitting at my table with thousands to think. All I did went so wrong and I'm not happy of it. All sudden I feel a bit relief but a minutes ago I'm so angry. God, I'm having a mood swings today. Argh!! I could be happy in one minutes, turning to sad another minutes, getting angry by then and all sudden I'm so happy..what an awkward feels..
And knowing me, getting a mixture of feels would bring so much of facial expression. A grumpy look, a sweet cute face and then an ignorance expression. Which is me? All of them. I'm all of them as they are me.
Oh God, please help me to get rid of this. It is so uncomfortable for me and for others. I knew that I could hurt others with these kind of feels. Unfortunately, I can't help it. I can't help myself. It is uncontrollable though I tried very hard. The angry part just burst out. The tears would just falling. The sadness just came in. No knocking door. No greeting. No invitation. Nothing at all.
It always brings us troubles. Perhaps I should sing Lenka's "Trouble is a friend" maybe?
Trouble is a friend but trouble is a foe, oh oh
And no matter what I feed him he always seems to grow, oh oh
He sees what I see and he knows what I know, oh oh
So don’t forget as you ease on down the road
So don’t be alarmed if he takes you by the arm
I won’t let him win, but I’m a sucker for his charm
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh!
Oh how I hate the way he makes me feel
And how I try to make him leave, I try
Oh oh, I try!
So don’t be alarmed if he takes you by the arm
I won’t let him win, but I’m a sucker for his charm
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh!
Ooo, oh ooo, ooo ahh
Oh God, please help me to get over this mix feels. Shoo it away..away from me..
